Its a secret... Don't tell anyone!!!

I can't believe it!!! Or is it beleive it??? I'm 25... And still, I keep secrets!!! Atleast most of them... Not mine... I guess I cannot keep too many of my issues secret from anybody...But you know, those other kinda secrets... that are not yours.... that include those that need not be secrets... But then, when they are not mine, should I just be the accomplice in crime, or just go with "You know what!!! This is a secret... Psst... Psst... Psst... But don't tell anyone" routine?? Bottom line - what is right when you are dealing with secrets?
Well, keeping secrets in a small group, as I found out is a pretty tricky thing. On one end, you have the source who fills you with the secret saying you are not supposed to say it to anybody else. And then, you feel good that you are the "privileged one", the one (or one of the two, or three... or the few) who just knows, while the rest of the world is seesawing between ignorance and guesswork. You play along with the game, putting up an innocent face, never raising a deliberate suspicion of your involvement. You stay loyal to your source.
And then on the other hand is your circle of friends, your clique, your group, the rest of yourself, that has almost shared everything with you. Everything that belonged to them, and sometimes things that didn't. Someones who trust you enough to believe that you are not fooling them. But if you are holding a secret that you don;t share, you are fooling them. And that my friend, is an insult. An alienation.
I keep wondering how I would feel if I knew that I was the last one in the world to know something. I keep wondering how I would feel if I would come to know that everybody had known it before I did. Worse still I keep wondering... (May be I'm in the Rabbit hole and not Alice) how I would feel if I knew my best friend would keep secrets from me.
I guess there is nothing absolutely right in this. Sometimes, its the news that matter. Sometimes, its the reporter. And some other times its the channel. Have I grown up enough to know what matters when? Nope. But till then, I just need to learn how to manage my secrets. and others secrets. Its not just about loyalty. Its also about being trustworthy.